Even after receiving profound spiritual insight and understanding through a Quantum Healing Hypnosis session, I've come to recognize something incredibly important: We can hold tremendous spiritual wisdom and still experience the full depth of being human. We can find meaning in our experiences and still feel sadness. We can experience gratitude and still grieve. We can understand something on a soul level and still have moments when our human hearts ache.

And that's okay. 🤍

In this conversation, we explore why grief can feel so confusing, why there is no right or wrong way to navigate it, and the importance of extending ourselves grace, compassion, and gentleness throughout the process.

We also explore the incredible gift of our emotional spectrum and why allowing ourselves to truly FEEL, rather than suppress or resist our emotions, is such an important part of healing.

What we resist, persists.

I believe that the depth to which we allow ourselves to experience life's more difficult emotions also expands our capacity to experience its extraordinary beauty, joy, love, and bliss.

If you're navigating grief in any form, I hope this conversation reminds you that you don't need to rush your healing, make sense of every emotion, or have everything figured out. Be gentle with yourself. Give yourself permission to feel. And remember that even in the midst of sorrow, there is still so much beauty to be experienced in this extraordinary human journey.

Sending you so much love, wherever you are on your journey. 🤍

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My QHHT Session: A Profound Message from My Son

During a Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique (QHHT) session, I experienced a deeply moving connection with my son, who shared profound insights into the spiritual reasoning behind my pregnancy loss. I share the full experience and the clarity it brought me in this video: https://youtu.be/ucQ8Kc5Gm1w?si=oeQmw7v6p2aDlGi5

October 14: A Love Letter to Life 🤍

A deeply personal reflection on soul contracts, divine love, the mysteries of existence, and the extraordinary gift of another day on Earth. An invitation to embrace the beauty of this human experience, even through life's most difficult moments: https://www.jowitahealingarts.com/p/october-14-a-love-letter-to-life

What I could have never imagined was that this same date would eventually take on an entirely different meaning, one that would challenge everything I thought I understood about life, death, love, and the extraordinary mysteries of our existence.

Following the loss of my pregnancy in May, I had a deeply transformative QHHT session in July, which I received an astonishing message: my original soul contract had been to depart this Earth on October 14, 2026, alongside my babies.

Even now, as I write these words, I find myself contemplating the magnitude of what that means to me. The thought that I could have been approaching the final day of my earthly experience, completely unaware of what had been spiritually intended, is almost impossible to wrap my human mind around.

And yet, on October 14, I found myself standing among the magnificent golden aspens in the mountains of Flagstaff, feeling the crisp autumn breeze against my skin, the warmth of the afternoon sun upon my face, and the loving embrace of the man I get to share this beautiful life with.

I was overcome with such an extraordinary feeling of gratitude that I wanted to absorb every sensation, every sound, every little detail of that precious moment.

How incredibly grateful I am for the gift of another day on this beautiful Earth.

The Story I Haven’t Fully Shared

Some of you already know that on May 28 of this year, I experienced the devastating loss of my baby boy, Troy III, at 20 weeks of pregnancy. I’ve shared parts of that experience publicly, including the profound spiritual revelations that followed, but there is another beautiful piece of this story that I haven’t yet spoken about.

Following my loss, I came to understand that there was another little soul connected to my pregnancy, a baby girl whom I lovingly call Lily.

Lily

Throughout my pregnancy, only one baby had been visible on my ultrasounds, so I had no reason to believe I was carrying more than one child. However, after returning home from the hospital following the loss, I unexpectedly passed what appeared to be a yolk sac, something that left me with questions about what my body had experienced.

It wasn’t until the QHHT session where the soul of my son came through, followed by a conversation with a couple dear friends who are deeply intuitive, that I received a spiritual explanation that brought an entirely new dimension to my understanding of the pregnancy.

Through these experiences, I was told that I had originally been carrying two babies, and that my little girl had departed very early in the pregnancy, around six weeks, while my baby boy continued to grow within me. I had spent months grieving the loss of the little boy I had carried, loved, and dreamed of meeting, and suddenly I was contemplating the possibility that another beautiful little soul had been part of that journey all along.

It was incredibly tender coming to know Lily in this way, after the physical experience of pregnancy had already ended. I never had the opportunity to knowingly celebrate her presence while I was pregnant, to imagine her little face, or to dream about the life we might share. And yet, through the spiritual understanding I received, I began making space in my heart for her, too.

I began pondering how she was doing on a soul level, and why her soul had chosen to depart the earthly realm so early in her journey. These were questions I had found myself contemplating before, following two previous miscarriages, both around eight weeks into my pregnancies. At the time, I was absolutely devastated. I struggled to make sense of why these precious little lives had ended before they had truly begun, and in my grief, I found myself seeking spiritual guidance in hopes of finding some understanding and comfort.

It was during that time that I was introduced to a beautiful spiritual perspective that would profoundly transform the way I viewed pregnancy loss. I learned that souls do not always enter the earthly realm with the intention of experiencing an entire human lifetime. Sometimes, a soul may choose to experience physical existence for only a brief moment, and even the time spent within a mother’s womb can offer an extraordinary opportunity for learning, growth, and evolution.

From this perspective, the experience of being held within the womb, surrounded by the mother’s emotions, heartbeat, energy, and love, is itself a meaningful encounter with physical existence. Even a brief experience on Earth can hold tremendous significance for a soul’s evolutionary journey, regardless of how short that experience appears from our human perspective.

This understanding brought me an immense amount of peace during one of the most heartbreaking periods of my life. Rather than viewing my miscarriages through the lens of failure, or feeling that my body had somehow let me or my babies down, I began to see those pregnancies as sacred collaborations between souls. I came to appreciate the possibility that we had each entered into those experiences with something meaningful to give and receive, and that our time together, however brief, had served a purpose within the greater unfolding of our individual soul journeys.

And now, as I contemplated Lily’s journey, I found myself returning to that same beautiful understanding, wondering about the experiences her soul had come to have, the love we had exchanged, and the mysterious ways in which our souls continue to touch and transform one another.

The Soul Contract That Changed

One of the most extraordinary revelations from my QHHT experience was the understanding that my original soul contract had involved departing this physical existence on October 14, 2026, the very day my son was due to be born.

According to the message I received, my departure had been part of a much larger spiritual agreement, one that involved not only my own soul’s journey but also the lives of those I love.

What made this whole thing even more profound was learning about the role that Troy’s love and prayers had played in what I came to understand as a change in that agreement.

In the weeks leading up to our loss, Troy had been experiencing unsettling dreams in which he lost me. At the time, neither of us could have fully understood the significance those dreams would later hold within the spiritual story that emerged.

During my QHHT session, I received the message that subconsciously, Troy had been praying to God to keep me here, and that he simply wasn’t ready to experience life without me. The understanding conveyed was that his deep love for me, his prayers, and the beautiful power of divine intervention had altered what was originally intended.

My soul contract had been rewritten through the power of love.

Instead of the departure I was told had originally been planned for October, I experienced the devastating loss of my pregnancy in May, and my own life continued.

I want to acknowledge that this has profoundly shaped the way I understand my human experience journey, my relationship with God, and the mysteries surrounding our existence.

And oh, how humbling those mysteries are.

The more I contemplate the extraordinary intricacies of life, the more I recognize how little we truly understand about the nature of consciousness, the soul, divine timing, and the invisible connections that seem to weave through our human experiences.

I think about the countless circumstances that must align for any one of us to be here, the extraordinary complexity of our physical bodies, the seemingly miraculous nature of consciousness itself, and the love that binds us to one another in ways we cannot always explain.

There is so much I feel I have come to understand through my spiritual journey, and simultaneously, so much that remains an extraordinary mystery and rather than needing to have every question answered, I find myself increasingly comfortable standing in awe of it all.

A Beautiful Day Among the Golden Aspens

Knowing the significance October 14 held for us, Troy took the day off work so we could spend it together.

We decided to drive north to Flagstaff and spend the day at Snowbowl, surrounded by the magnificent beauty of the mountains during one of my favorite times of year.

The autumn colors were absolutely breathtaking. Towering aspens stretched toward the brilliant blue sky, their golden leaves shimmering in the sunlight, while the magnificent pine trees stood peacefully among them. The air was crisp and refreshing, and the ground was covered in a beautiful tapestry of fallen leaves that rustled beneath our feet as we wandered through the forest.

We rode the chairlift and admired the incredible mountain scenery, taking in the contrast of golden treetops, evergreen forests, and the distant mountaintops dusted with snow.

There is something so incredibly grounding about being immersed in nature, away from the noise and distractions of everyday life, where you can simply surrender to the beauty of the present moment.

As we walked through the forest, I found myself noticing everything with a heightened sense of appreciation. I loved the way the sunlight filtered through the trees, illuminating the golden leaves as though they were glowing from within. I loved the cool mountain air filling my lungs and the gentle breeze moving through my hair. I loved the sound of our footsteps against the forest floor and the peaceful stillness that seemed to surround us.

But more than anything, I loved being there with Troy.

I loved soaking up this beautiful day together.

I kept looking at him and thinking about how extraordinary it is that we get to share this life together, that after everything we have experienced, we were standing there beneath those beautiful trees, creating another memory, loving one another, and enjoying the simple pleasure of being alive.

And I found myself wondering how often we overlook these seemingly ordinary experiences, forgetting that they are the very moments that make being human such an incredible gift.

A Little Piece of Love Left in the Mountains

Before our trip, I wanted to paint a little rock with the names of both of our babies, Lily and Troy. I decorated it with bright colors and a little golden sun, wanting to create something beautiful that we could leave behind in their honor.

As we wandered through the forest, surrounded by those magnificent aspens, I found a special place where I wanted the rock to rest.

I gently leaned it against the base of an aspen tree, nestled among the fallen leaves, where the sunlight could dance through the branches above it.

I thought about how much love can be contained within something so small and simple. To anyone passing by, it would be a colorful little rock with two names painted on it, but to me, it represented two precious souls, the dreams I once carried, and a love that continues to live within my heart.

I loved the thought of their names resting together in the mountains, surrounded by the beauty of nature and the changing seasons. It felt like a beautiful way to honor them through the love that surrounded us that day. And as I stood there, I felt an overwhelming appreciation for the opportunity to be present for that moment. To honor my babies, to love their father, and to experience another beautiful day on this magnificent planet.

When Grief and Gratitude Coexist

One of the most profound things I have come to understand through this experience is that grief and gratitude are not mutually exclusive.

For a long time, we are conditioned to think of emotions as though they exist in opposition to one another, as though feeling happiness somehow diminishes our sadness, or experiencing gratitude means we have moved beyond our grief.

But I am discovering just how beautifully complex the human heart truly is.

I think this is one of the most extraordinary aspects of our humanity: our capacity to hold such seemingly contradictory emotions within the same heart. We can experience devastating heartbreak and still find ourselves moved to tears by the beauty of a sunset. We can carry profound longing for someone we love while feeling immense joy in the embrace of someone standing right beside us.

We can have our hearts broken wide open by life and discover that, somehow, they have also expanded in their capacity to love.

And isn’t that such a remarkable part of being human?

I often reflect on the idea that we come into this physical experience to feel, to explore, to learn, and to experience the extraordinary spectrum of emotions available to us. There is such tremendous depth to this human journey, and the more I allow myself to fully experience it, the more I appreciate the sacredness of being here.

I don’t want to spend my life waiting for everything to make sense before I allow myself to enjoy it. I want to embrace the mystery while continuing to participate wholeheartedly in the beauty unfolding before me.

Falling in Love With Life All Over Again

As our beautiful day in the mountains came to an end, I found myself reflecting on just how profoundly my relationship with life has changed.

There was a time when October 14 represented a future I was eagerly anticipating, a day when I imagined finally holding my baby boy in my arms and beginning an entirely new chapter of motherhood. Following our loss and the spiritual revelations that came afterward, that same date took on an entirely different significance, inviting me to contemplate the fragility of my own existence and the extraordinary mysteries surrounding it.

And yet, when October 14 finally arrived, rather than being consumed by everything that had happened or everything I had come to understand, I found myself completely immersed in the beauty of the life unfolding before me.

I was alive to experience another autumn, to feel the cool mountain breeze against my skin, to laugh with Troy, to hold his hand, and to create another precious memory together. I was alive to honor my babies in a way that felt deeply meaningful to me, surrounded by the magnificent beauty of nature and the comforting presence of someone I love beyond words.

And somewhere in the midst of it all, I found myself falling in love with life all over again.

I’ve been reflecting on how often we spend our days anticipating the next big milestone, believing that happiness is waiting for us somewhere in the future, when so much of what makes life extraordinary is already available to us in the simplest moments.

The morning sunlight streaming through a window, the sound of someone we love laughing, the feeling of fresh air against our skin, the changing colors of the seasons, or the quiet comfort of simply sitting beside someone who makes us feel at home.

These moments are not insignificant details scattered between the important events of our lives. They are our lives.

And the more I contemplate the impermanence of this physical experience, the more I recognize just how precious these seemingly ordinary moments truly are.

None of us knows how many more sunrises we will witness, how many more autumns we will experience, or how many more opportunities we will have to embrace the people we love. And rather than allowing that awareness to fill me with fear, I find that it inspires me to participate in life more fully.

I want to express my love freely, laugh wholeheartedly, embrace the people I cherish, and continue discovering all the beautiful ways this human experience invites us to grow, evolve, and expand. I want to be present for my life rather than spend it waiting for circumstances to be different before allowing myself to enjoy it.

And above all, I am learning that even when life unfolds in ways we could never have anticipated, our capacity to love, to experience joy, and to find meaning in the present moment remains one of our greatest gifts.

To my sweet babies, Lily and Troy, thank you for the love you awakened within me. Although our time together in this physical world was far shorter than I ever imagined, the love I carry for you continues to shape the way I experience this beautiful life.

And to my amazing, beautiful partner Troy, thank you for walking beside me through the unimaginable, for the laughter we continue to share, and for reminding me through your love that there is still so much beauty waiting to be experienced.

Most of all, I find myself looking toward God with a heart overflowing with gratitude. For the love that surrounds me, for the mysteries I am still learning to embrace, and for the extraordinary opportunity to continue experiencing this magnificent human journey.

Thank you for another day.

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Our emotions are not obstacles to overcome. They are messengers, an intrinsic part of the intelligence and depth of being human.

I created this Understanding Emotions series as an exploration of what happens when we stop labeling emotions as “good” or “bad” and begin listening to what they are here to show us.

Throughout the series, we explore how our willingness to feel connects us more deeply to ourselves, to one another, and to the fullness of the human experience.

The depth we allow ourselves to feel becomes the depth with which we are able to experience life.

Part One — Emotions as Teachers

What if the emotions we spend so much time trying to escape are actually part of why we’re here? Exploring Dolores Cannon’s perspective on Earth as a hands-on classroom where emotion turns understanding into lived experience.

Part Two — Listening to Our Emotions

Our emotions can carry valuable information. Anger, jealousy, fear, and grief can become teachers when we learn to meet them with curiosity rather than immediately suppressing or judging them.

Part Three — Understanding Anger

A deeper look at anger as a secondary emotion, what can exist beneath it, the effects of emotional suppression, and how we can consciously direct the powerful energy anger carries.

Part Four — Feeling, Discernment & Consciousness

Feeling is part of what connects us to our humanity. When we allow ourselves to feel deeply, information becomes lived experience. Learning to feel without automatically believing every story attached to an emotion can strengthen our discernment and our connection to one another.

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✦ A Final Thought ✦

You are not here to master the art of being unbothered.
You are here to experience the fullness of being human.

Not every emotion needs a reaction. But every emotion deserves to be felt.

When we stop pushing away what we feel and actually sit with it, we begin to understand ourselves on a much deeper level. We can honor what’s moving through us without letting it become who we are.

Feel it. Listen to it. Learn from it.
✦ Then let it move through you ✦

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During a Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique (QHHT) session in July, my heart was cracked wide open. The soul of my son came through to speak with me, bringing profound clarity around our soul contract, the immense power of prayer, and the transformative strength of unconditional love.

This experience gave me a deep appreciation for the tapestry of life and the precious gift of being alive. My hope is that sharing this story offers you comfort, deep relief, and a sense of understanding, whether you have walked this path yourself or are supporting someone you love.

OMG I Totally forgot to mention: When I share about Troy praying to keep me on Earth, this was happening 100% on a subconscious level—he was not consciously aware of it at the time, which speaks to the incredible power of our higher consciousness!

Another profound insight I forgot to mention was my son sharing how much this experience helped him evolve as a soul. I also learned through a medium once that some souls choose to experience just a brief moment of a human incarnation—simply for the rich experience of it. He thanked me for the experience and said that my womb was so warm and that he felt so protected and safe the whole time. He also expressed how good it felt to experience human love. How beautiful is that? Knowing this has brought me tremendous peace of mind, and I hope it offers that same comfort to you.

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I talk about a previous experience in October of 2025 where my ET mom came through during a QHHT session. You can watch that full story here: https://youtu.be/tfjfFRr4dWc?si=1m2W2lOBePFlV-hK

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Book a Session with Me: If you are located in or visiting Arizona and would like to experience a private session, visit https://www.jowitahealingarts.com/p/illuminating-the-self-qhht-with-jowita

Find a Practitioner Near You: If you are outside of Arizona, you can find a certified practitioner in your local area through the Official QHHT Directory: https://members.qhhtofficial.com/find-a-practitioner/

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In this video, I am sharing a deeply personal look into my journey through pregnancy loss and stillbirth after losing my baby boy in May.

During a Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique (QHHT) session in July, my heart was cracked wide open. The soul of my son came through to speak with me, bringing profound clarity around our soul contract, the immense power of prayer, and the transformative strength of unconditional love.

This experience gave me a deep appreciation for the tapestry of life and the precious gift of being alive. My hope is that sharing this story offers you comfort, deep relief, and a sense of understanding, whether you have walked this path yourself or are supporting someone you love.

OMG I Totally forgot to mention: When I share about Troy praying to keep me on Earth, this was happening 100% on a subconscious level, he was not consciously aware of it at the time, which speaks to the incredible power of our higher consciousness!

Another profound insight I forgot to mention was my son sharing how much this experience helped him evolve as a soul. I also learned through a medium once that some souls choose to experience just a brief moment of a human incarnation—simply for the rich experience of it. He thanked me for the experience and said that my womb was so warm and that he felt so protected and safe the whole time. He also expressed how good it felt to experience human love. How beautiful is that? Knowing this has brought me tremendous peace of mind, and I hope it offers that same comfort to you.

🌌 Mentioned in This Video:
In the video, I talk about a previous experience on October 14th, 2025 where my ET mom came through during a QHHT session. You can watch that full story here:

What I Learned in my QHHT Session | Sirian Starseed

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7 days ago today, I was admitted to the hospital to induce labor.

8 days ago, I was still pregnant. Troy and I were driving to my OB’s office for our 20-week ultrasound appointment, full of anticipation.

This all still feels like a bad dream. Each day, I cycle through an exhausting variety of emotions, oscillating on a constant rollercoaster ranging from acceptance to guilt, anger to confusion, and abandonment to a heavy, hollow questioning of “what’s the point in living anymore?” And then, it swings back around again to understanding, and to brief but profound moments of soul-level peace.

Currently, I am sitting here at my computer, wearing cold, crushed cabbage leaves in my sports bra, as apparently, they help prevent and suppress breast engorgement and lactation. It’s 12:45 PM. Troy just left for the office for his first day back to work since this all happened, and I wanted to get some feelings down. I know writing is an excellent way to transmute energy and help my mind process everything. I am an extremely emotional person. Through sharing my experience and my words, it not only helps me tremendously, but my deepest hope is to be a beacon of light to others who have endured this exact pain, or who love someone who has.

Let’s start from the moment our world shifted, the moment we found out there was no heartbeat…

I’m laying in the third room at my doctor’s office. In the first room, we tried the Doppler. In the second room, we tried the basic ultrasound machine. The third was the dimly lit room with the heavy-duty ultrasound machine. I’m laying there, tears already forming in my eyes. Having gone through this situation twice before, though much earlier in pregnancy, I already knew what the frantic room-changing meant.

The silence from the doctor and the ultrasound technician was deafening. After a few agonizing moments of moving the device around my abdomen, my doctor uttered the words that still echo endlessly in my mind: “I am so sorry, there is no heartbeat.”

Troy leaped over and held me so tight. We just clung to each other in complete shock and confusion. In total disbelief, my mind kept repeating: “There is no way. We were supposed to be good. We were told everything was good. Our 16-week ultrasound was perfect. This cannot be happening.”

Troy and I sobbed in each other’s arms before we were escorted back into the original exam room to discuss the next steps. My doctor hugged me, her own eyes filled with sorrow. Still in disbelief, I looked at her and asked why this happened. She explained she couldn’t give me a definitive answer until the baby was delivered, it could have been an umbilical cord accident, a localized placenta issue, or something genetic. She told us she would call the hospital to schedule a labor induction.

*Sigh*

I asked, “So, I am going to have to give birth to a stillborn baby?” It was a question I never, ever thought would escape my lips. She placed her hand gently on my knee and replied, “Yes, I’m so sorry.”

The ride home from the doctor’s office was a total blur. We called our moms immediately when we walked through the door to break the news. For the next few hours, we just laid in bed, crying, holding each other, and trying to acclimate our minds to the fact that our plan for being parents had just been ripped from our lives.

The next morning at 7:00 AM, the call came. A nurse from the hospital told me they had a quiet room ready for me and that we could head over whenever we were ready. We got dressed, grabbed some Starbucks on the way, and rode to the hospital holding hands, mentally trying to prepare ourselves for what was to come, and continuously reminding one another that we will get through this, we will become stronger because of it, and that we will be ok.

We arrived at the hospital, and within an hour, we were being escorted to our room by our nurse, Lupita. She walked in front of us, leading us down a long hallway to a quiet corner of the unit. Before we stepped across the threshold into the room, she paused, turned around, and asked how to correctly pronounce my first name to ensure she got it right.

The weight of the moment hit me. I immediately and uncontrollably burst into tears and apologized for my sudden emotions. Without a second thought, Lupita stepped forward and pulled me into the tightest, most genuine embrace. She told me I had absolutely nothing to apologize for. She held me tightly, (she smelled like a field of flowers,) and said, “I am so sorry for the loss of your baby, and I will do everything I can to make you as comfortable as possible.” Her energy was so incredibly warm and loving that I literally melted into her arms, sobbing uncontrollably. At that exact point, I knew God had paired us with an angel.

When we finally got settled in our room, I changed into the hospital gown and Troy covered me with blankets, ensuring I was warm and comfortable. Within the hour, I had an IV started in my right hand, several vials of blood drawn for testing, and the team offered me anti-anxiety medication to help soothe my hyper-vigilant nervous system. Initially, I declined it. But Troy gently encouraged me to accept it, knowing the heart-wrenching physical and emotional pain ahead, and reminding me that it could help offset some of the trauma. I accepted. Within a few minutes of it entering my system, a wave of calm started to wash over me.

Then, I received my first dose of Cytotec to help my cervix soften and my uterus begin to contract. The Cytotec was the catalyst, a tiny pill meant to signal my body to do what it hadn’t yet realized it needed to do. Because my placenta was still working so perfectly and fiercely holding onto the pregnancy, my body wasn’t releasing the natural chemicals needed to begin labor. The Cytotec had to step in and begin working to gently soften my cervix and signal my uterus to begin the physical contractions of birth. Medical professionals call what I experienced a “missed” or “silent” stillbirth. For three whole weeks, my baby boy had been resting quietly inside me without a heartbeat, and I had absolutely no idea. It is a terrifying, surreal kind of confusion to realize your body didn’t get the biological memo.

While my mind was busy planning our future, my physical vessel was acting on pure, loyal momentum. Because the placenta is its own independent organ, it kept right on working, pumping out pregnancy hormones, expanding, and keeping my body completely convinced that everything was moving forward perfectly. My belly was still growing, my joints were still softening, and all the while, my sweet boy was just floating peacefully, suspended in a warm, protective cushion of amniotic fluid.

I still could not quite understand, though.. How could my intuition, my maternal instincts, and my own physical form be so completely out of sync? Why did my body keep building the sanctuary when the soul had already departed? But as I sat in that hospital bed waiting for the medicine to take effect, a sliver of understanding began to break through the anger: my body didn’t fail me. It loved my baby so fiercely that it refused to let go, keeping his earthly temple safe and undisturbed until the moment we were strong enough to hold him.

Troy and I turned on the hospital room TV, thumbing through the channels in an attempt to distract ourselves. We stopped on the movie Beetlejuice. If I can step out of the sadness of the day for just a moment, it was an excellent choice; it was our first time watching it as adults, and it brought a strange, necessary flicker of joy into the room.

As the day dissolved into evening, Lupita suggested a gentle walk around the hospital and getting some fresh air on the patio, as movement can help get things moving along. Troy and I eagerly agreed; we enjoyed ourselves and soaked up a bit of the sunset. Afterward, I received my fourth dose of Cytotec. Each dose had to be placed near the cervix, which was becoming incredibly uncomfortable. The medication left me feeling so raw and tender. But Troy brought us a feast for dinner, along with an ice-cold Diet Dr. Pepper. There was something about the crisp sweetness of that soda that gave me a tiny bit of pleasure, acting as a momentary escape from the heavy reality pressing down on us.

Speaking of Troy, he stayed right by my side the entire first day. He slept beside me at night, held me close when I cried, and prayed with me throughout the entire experience. I am typing these words behind huge tears of gratitude for that man. He is my whole world, and I thank God every day that I have him.

Later that evening, after enjoying another lovely walk outside and the soothing moonlight, I was wanting desperately to freshen up after laying in bed all day, I took a quick shower in the room. The water temperature kept fluctuating from hot to scalding, leaving me constantly struggling to find the sweet spot, dodging the hot stream just to wash my body. The nurse had warned me the shower wasn’t great, but I chose to tough it out anyway, knowing I would sleep so much better feeling clean. After the shower, my nurse checked my cervix. I was barely dilated, though it was beginning to open. They strapped a monitor around my belly to track contractions, gave me another dose of anti-anxiety medication along with some morphine to offset the painful cramping, and I finally went to sleep. (I also want to mention that earlier, my OB came in to check on me between her patients; she wrapped me in a warm embrace and reassured me, which meant the world.)

Surprisingly, I slept well, despite being checked on a couple times throughout the night. In the morning, the nurse checked me again. My cervix was slightly wider, but still not even dilated to a single centimeter. Troy, who had slept right beside me all night, asked if it would be okay if he ran home quickly to shower, change, and check on our sweet cat, Henry, who was experiencing his first night alone, ever. Feeling fine and seeing that nothing major was happening, I encouraged him, saying, “Absolutely! Go ahead, baby!”

Soon after he left, the doctor decided to give me a double dose of Cytotec. My nurse gently reminded me that this process is different for everyone; it could be completely quiet and still one moment, and the next, everything happens at once. She was right.

My breakfast arrived from hospital room service, and just as I was about to eat, the doctor who would be delivering my baby came in to introduce himself and chat briefly. After he left, I started noticing much sharper cramping as I ate. I called my nurse, and she told me to let her know as soon as I wanted the epidural. I told her I was okay for now, but within a single hour, the real pain set in.

I frantically called her back in and told her I needed it. She said, “Okay, I just have to run saline for 20 minutes, and then we can get it placed.” But within what felt like mere minutes, I was hit with extreme, overwhelming contraction pain. I tried to time them, it was one minute of intense, blinding contractions, followed by just one minute of rest. Then, suddenly, I felt an immense, unmistakable pressure. The baby was coming.

I called the nurses’ station, panic rising in my voice: “I think the baby is coming out!”

Within seconds, my quiet room exploded with motion. It filled with nurses, medical equipment, and the doctor. The pain was so unbearable that I didn’t even want to open my legs for the nurse to check me. I was on my knees, leaning over the top of the bed, because sitting down applied too much agonizing pressure. They asked me to lay back. The doctor broke my water, and seconds later, the pressure was instantly relieved. My baby boy was born.

In that moment, I was making sounds I never knew a human being could make, shifting from wild crying to a deep, primal moaning that was entirely uncontrollable. Troy hadn’t made it back yet. I felt a flash of anger that he wasn’t there, mixed with complete, breathless shock that it had all happened so incredibly fast.

I asked where my baby was. The nurses were gently preparing him for me to hold. When they finally handed him to me, he was resting inside a tiny, crocheted yellow pouch, wearing a miniature blue and white striped hat on his tiny head.

He was absolutely perfect.

I looked down and saw all of his facial features. I counted his ten perfect toes and ten perfect fingers on his tiny, flawless body. I was sobbing uncontrollably. Just then, Troy walked into the room, completely stunned and in shock. When I looked up at him and asked if he’d like to meet his son, the weight of it hit him. He collapsed right next to me, holding his baby boy for the very first time.

We named our son Troy Thomas Dinbokowitz III. He was born on May 28, 2026 at 12:14PM, into the arms of angels, weighing 5.15 ounces and measuring 9 inches long. We held him close, marveling at how beautiful and perfect he appeared. Though he was so tiny, he was flawless.

The doctor and nurses didn’t have an immediate answer for his sudden passing, explaining that they would know more after testing the placenta. The delivery of the placenta was its own painful, uncomfortable process, and I am so profoundly grateful Troy was there to hold my hand through it. But I did it. It was over.

Afterward, Lupita gave us hours of quiet, sacred time to just be a family. She even took some beautiful photos of him surrounded by flowers. That evening, we were discharged from the hospital. We were able to bring our sweet baby boy home with us, so we could finally lay him to rest.

The next day, we bought a beautiful baby Mandarin tree. We dug into the earth, and we laid him to rest beneath its roots.

As I sit here now, looking out at that little tree, I realize that grief and love are eternally intertwined, two sides of the exact same coin. The immense, hollow ache we carry in our chest today is simply the physical form of the boundless love we will always have for our son.

Being that I have spent years studying the afterlife and metaphysics, and have even facilitated sessions where my clients, under deep quantum hypnosis, have reunited with their passed loved ones or the babies they lost, I have a profound understanding of what lies beyond. Because of this, I know with absolute certainty that our son is safe with Source, safe with God, and that there was a divine plan for this entire experience. I refuse to look at this tragedy as a punishment. Instead, this situation has only deepened my intense yearning to be a mother, the connection to our Creator, and the bond I have with Troy. I hold complete trust that this beautiful, high-vibrational soul will come back to be incarnated here on earth when the time is exactly right.

Troy Thomas Dinbokowitz III was here. He was real. He made me a mother to a son, and he showed Troy and me the absolute highest, most profound depth of human love. Our plan for parenting him in the physical realm may have been ripped away temporarily, but our journey as his parents is lifelong.

Every time the desert wind rustles through the leaves of that Mandarin tree, I will know he is there, grounded in the earth, wrapped in the arms of angels, and forever woven into the fabric of our souls.

Rest in peace, our perfect little boy. You are so deeply loved.

Why this works: The Power of Neuroplasticity 🧠✨

We often fall into old, heavy habits of negative thinking without realizing the physical weight we are asking our minds and bodies to carry. But through the science of neuroplasticity, we know the brain is completely malleable. Your thoughts and words are constantly, quietly shaping your neural pathways and your reality. When you consistently feed your mind with elevated, radiant thoughts, the old, limiting structures simply dissolve away.

How to use this episode:

Think of these 20 concepts as fertilizing the soil of your mind. There is no need to force anything or try to memorize them. Simply let the music and the words wash over your consciousness, allowing your subconscious to pull in exactly what you need today. Loop it on your morning commute, during a quiet walk, or whenever your nervous system needs a beautiful realignment.

I see you vibrant, healthy, and living a life filled with genuine joy. Thank you for walking this pathway of growth with me. Enjoy the journey!

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Join me for a potent soul activation/transmission to ignite the Sun within — a call to remember who you truly are and the unique gifts you brought to this life. This empowering episode supports you in reclaiming your purpose, amplifying your light, and stepping confidently into your personal power and service. Perfect for anyone ready to embody greater radiance and remember their mission. Listen often and whenever you would like an energy boost.

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Beyond exploring the "Soup and Scoop" theory, coined by Nina Maureen Galy, teachings from Dolores Cannon and Abraham Hicks, we discuss the transformative concept that we are all keys to unlocking one another's potential. When we stop viewing others as obstacles or adversaries and start seeing them as mirrors and teachers, we create space for true harmony. Join me as we explore how radical kindness, deep curiosity, and seeing the humanity in one another isn't just a "nice" idea, its the fundamental answer to conflict and the essential blueprint for building lasting world peace.

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Drawing from the work of Gabor Maté and Caroline Myss, we look at people-pleasing through both a psychological and spiritual lens. We explore how attachment shapes this pattern, and how levels of consciousness influence the way we respond to conflict, approval, and responsibility. I introduce Caroline Myss’s idea of the “penthouse view”, a higher perspective where we observe our patterns with clarity rather than judgment, and how accessing this view changes everything.

We’ll talk about common signs you may be a people pleaser, real-life examples of how the pattern shows up, and why outgrowing it can feel uncomfortable, lonely, and deeply liberating all at once. We’ll also explore the truth that Earth is a school, and everyone we meet is a mirror, a messenger, or a mentor in disguise. Each moment, especially the ones that trigger or challenge us, carries a curriculum for our soul’s growth. When we stop labeling interactions as good or bad and instead ask, "What is this here to teach me?", we reclaim our power. This is how we evolve: not by avoiding discomfort, but by alchemizing it. Your life is a sacred classroom, and you are ready to graduate from the lesson of self-abandonment into the embodiment of self-respect.

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A More Personal QHHT Experience:

QHHT has also supported me through one of the most profound experiences of my life. After losing my son five months into my pregnancy, a QHHT session offered me unexpected insight, connection, and a deeper understanding of his soul’s journey and my own.

Watch my experience: Healing After Pregnancy Loss: What a QHHT Session Taught Me About Soul Contracts & Love

If you feel called to explore your own soul’s journey, I would be honored to hold space for you. I am currently offering QHHT sessions and each one is a deeply sacred experience. To learn more or book a session, please click here

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Hello Everyone. Jowita is a beautiful and wonderful being! She helped me unlock so much through this experience. I am truly thankful that through her I was able to get in touch with the powerful soul that I have within me. Thank you so much Jowita, I am truly thankful and grateful for you.

Ruzanna’s Testimony:

My QHHT session with Jowita was one of the most profound and clarifying experiences I’ve had on my healing journey. From the moment we began, she created a space that felt sacred and safe, allowing me to fully surrender and explore parts of my soul that had long been waiting to speak.

Through her compassionate guidance, I accessed past life memories that gave me deep clarity around many of the choices I’ve made in this lifetime. Her intuitive connection and ability to gently navigate the session allowed me to receive information from my Subconscious (SC) with ease and trust. The insights that came through were not only emotional and validating, they were incredibly empowering.

I received so much clarity about my role as a caregiver to my mother, and why our souls chose this path together. It helped lift some of the heaviness I had been holding. I also came to better understand the nature of my sleep and dream challenges, and what is truly happening during those hours. This has brought peace to my nervous system and softened the fear around the unknown.

Jowita holds space with pure presence. She listens with the heart of a healer and the wisdom of someone who has walked through her own portals. Her voice anchored me during the session and helped me feel supported in every dimension I traveled through. I never felt rushed or dismissed. I felt deeply seen.

If you are seeking answers from your Higher Self, ready to receive clarity around your path, or simply want to be witnessed in your soul’s fullness, I cannot recommend Jowita enough. She is a gifted practitioner, a clear channel, and a deeply loving soul.

Thank you, Jowita, for helping me remember what my heart already knew. I will carry the insights from our session with me for a long time.

Mathilde’s Testimony:

I have no words to describe my session with Jowita. This was my first QHHT session ever and all I can say is that I am left blown away. Blown away by Jowita’s capacity to lead and guide with so much intent and awareness. The session was incredibly seamless and smooth. I did not expect to be under hypnosis for 2h30 and this excludes the before and after! All my questions were answered. I received so many visuals, answers, but most importantly - SHARP CLARITY. I felt it through my whole body. It was just mind blowing. The best is that I have these recordings for life, which I will be re-listening to, as I know that such guidance is timeless. It is priceless. Thank you Jowita for bringing this work, and making it such a safe, smooth cocoon for higher guidance to descend and work its magic.

Dani’s Testimony:

I was referred to Jowita by a friend, and I’m beyond grateful that our paths aligned. From the moment I met her, I felt seen, heard, and supported in such a genuine and loving way.

Jowita radiates pure light. Her energy is calm, nurturing, and filled with compassion, the kind of presence that makes you feel instantly safe and understood. During my QHHT hypnosis session, she took the time to truly listen to my story and guide me with so much care and intention for my highest good.

The experience itself was nothing short of profound. Journeying through past and parallel lives gave me incredible clarity and healing, and throughout it all, Jowita held sacred space with grace and patience. From our heartfelt conversation before the session, to the hypnosis itself, and the thoughtful debrief afterwards- every moment felt aligned, peaceful, and transformative.

I walked away with a deeper understanding of myself and a sense of peace that’s hard to put into words. Jowita’s ability to ask the most intuitive questions helped uncover layers of wisdom and truth within me that I didn’t even realize were there.

She is truly a bright, beautiful soul doing divine work, and I’m so thankful for her presence on my healing journey. I can’t wait to refer my friends to her .. if you’re on the fence, trust your heart and go for it. You’ll be so grateful you did!

Ashlie’s Testimony:

I am not into all of the hocus pocus, free spirit, meditate, feel your body and breathe type of stuff. It just isn’t my thing. I am a black and white person and usually don’t have any room for ambiguity. I want cold hard facts and then I want to use my brain to get me through to the other side.

One of my best friends, Jowita, has taken an interest in QHHT which stands for Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique. She would get so excited when she would talk to me about it and one day, she asked me if I would want to experience it and help her get some hours under her belt. I said, sure. Of course. I don’t believe in this type of stuff but I’m down to see how it all plays out.

So, picture this, I show up at her home where she starts us off by sitting on the couch and turning on some music on youtube. We settled on “French Cafe Aesthetic” and then began our chat session. She discussed with me what she would be doing and that she would be asking me questions and my subconscious mind would be able to pull answers. I cannot be hypnotized but we’re going to give this a go.

Well, ladies, gentlemen and they/them .. Let’s go ahead and talk about what was happening WHEN I WOKE UP. First of all, I don’t even remember her counting me down. That really tripped me out. I had no recollection of her speaking to me at all and had no recollection of even responding to anything. I felt like I had gone over there to take a nap and then get back on the road.

She went over some cool stuff with me but all I could remember was how chapped my lips were. I don’t usually get chapped lips unless I go somewhere really cold so the fact that I couldn’t remember shit but could feel the desperation of needing chapstick really stood out to me. Before I left, Jowita said she was going to send me the recording she took of our session.

When I got home, I checked it out and was BAMBOOZLED by what I was listening to. The types of questions she was asking me, had been a series of questions that I had provided to her to ask. The responses. THE RESPONSES THAT WERE COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH, I couldn’t believe it. I felt really heavy and exhausted for the remainder of the day and didn’t necessarily even know why.

That next morning, the energy used to hop out of bed and write myself an immediate task list was alarming. I had so many good thoughts streaming out and I wanted to write them down. One of my main struggles has been dealing with my daughter’s father for the past 15 years of my life.

Our daughter is only 8 but I dealt with him for a long time prior to her birth. The man had a hold on me. I’m talking he can be such a little piece of shit but whenever he calls for me .. I would go running. I asked Jowita to ask my subconscious what the point of our relationship was and why I was unable to let it go.

Ya’ll .. on the recording, I heard my own voice say to me, “He was put in your life to show you that you cannot trust everyone you meet” and I just started bawling. It made so much sense to me and I swear, like night and day, I felt a little lighter in my walk.

I brought all of that up to say, once I heard myself speak to myself about my daughter’s father and his purpose, it was as if my body freed itself of him. How do I know that my body freed itself? Well, 3 weeks after my session .. A new man walked into my life and it was so easy for him to do because I had finally let go of the man who had been holding me back.

If you are someone who might not get a lot out of typical hypnoticism, I would say give QHHT a shot. If nothing else, it provided me with the utmost clarity on where and how I wanted to move forward with my life. Thank you so much Jowita

Brenda’s Testimony:

Jowita is an extraordinary human being.

She is one of those people who deeply connects with your emotions and feelings, and who listens with such genuine empathy and compassion. She truly cares about the person sitting in front of her.

From my very first session with Jowita—which was also the first time I ever met her—I felt deeply heard, understood, and loved, even though we had never met before.

Jowita radiates so much love through her presence that you instantly feel safe and completely trustful enough to surrender to the experience of a Quantum Hypnosis session.

Thank you, Jowita, for all the beautiful things you have brought into my life. Thank you for all the extraordinary Higher Consciousness hypnosis experiences we have shared together.

Through these experiences, I have been able to connect with this part of my Higher Self in a way I never imagined possible.

Thank you for being such a beautiful channel of love, connection, and expansion.

Jayme’s Testimony:

I loved my QHHT session with Jowita. Her beautiful, welcoming energy allowed me to fully open up without any fear of rejection or judgment. She patiently and kindly listened to my whole life story offering advice and condolences along the way. She was so soft and gentle with her voice that I went down very easily. The past life I explored was such a great experience. Jowita asked all the right questions to guide my session. After the session we discussed the themes and lessons and I was able to talk about my experience and ask any questions. It was truly a transformative experience. I can not wait to have another session with her!

To learn more about QHHT with Jowita or book a session, click here.

As Dolores Cannon, the pioneer of QHHT, once shared:

“Free will is very important for every one of the Earth. They must see through and transcend the illusion that exists in present mass consciousness. And trust in the higher spiritual laws and processes.”

Her words reflect the essence of this work — returning to our own sovereignty by seeing clearly and choosing consciously. Ready to explore what your Higher Self has been waiting to share? Click here to learn more and book your QHHT session.

I share the miracles I’ve witnessed in my clients’ sessions, the profound shifts in my own consciousness, and a mystical experience that brought me to tears of joy, delivering crystal clarity on my soul mission in this lifetime.

This episode is both a reflection and a celebration: of love, expansion, purpose, and the infinite support available to us when we choose to walk the path of light.

Plus, I share a channeled message directly from my guides, a transmission of encouragement, love, and divine remembrance.

If you’re navigating your own expansion, if you’re curious about QHHT or feel the call to align more deeply with your higher self… this one is for you.

QHHT info: https://jowitaklusek.substack.com/p/illuminating-the-self-qhht-with-jowita

The Quantum Lounge Podcast:

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“Prompt: Have you ever learned something you didn't think you could learn? What was it and what strategies did you use to help yourself be successful? How did you feel once you had learned it? How can you use this experience to build resilience as you face difficult tasks in your courses ahead?

My response: I remember when I tried hot yoga for the first time. I was with Jen, my limber and svelte Asian goddess of a friend and we were in a pretty hip studio in North Phoenix. The lobby was dimly lit, the atmosphere was relaxed with ambient electronica rhythmically pulsating throughout the room, the inviting scent of lavender and vanilla soothingly caressing my senses as I studied the room.

It looked like a casting call of the hottest, most fit people in the valley. Cool, now I’m nervous and intimidated. I’ve tried yoga before and even after stating that I wasn’t very flexible, Jen assured me that the heat and humidity (a lovely 105°F (40.5°C) with about 40% humidity) allow you to contort your body into positions you didn’t think were possible. Feeling both eager and terrified, class began and immediately, it became painfully obvious that I was the newbie.

Uncoordinated and awkward, I pushed through the class while mentally berating myself throughout the duration of the 90 minute torturous class. “Jowita, you’re SO not coming back!”, “oh my god. This SUCKS!”, “I am literally sweating down my forehead, into my eyes. Wait, are my eyelashes sweating? Is that even possible?”, “if it wasn’t frowned upon to leave class prematurely I would be half way home… but no, instead I’m in an awkward downward facing - dog hovering over a pool of sweat.”, “I’ve officially reached the epitome of embarrassment… *loses balance and plummets forward*... wait, no. now I have”

Based on that lovely experience along with the kind words in my head, I was convinced I’d never be able to call myself a Yogi. Being that I am annoyingly hard on myself, I wouldn’t give up. So, I went back, and soon became pretty darn good at hot yoga. Jen was very supportive and pushed me when I wanted to go home and lounge around in my sweats.

Once I overcame the initial shock of the severity and complexity of the class, I knew that I would only improve. Practice makes perfect, right? Well, by no means would I say I’ve peaked perfection, but I definitely captured the eye of several classmates who kindly complimented my progress.

I use this experience to build resilience as I face difficult situations in life regularly. From overcoming a challenging task and time consuming task at work, to dealing with the demise of a three year romantic relationship, I know that adopting the growth mindset way of thinking has been the sole reason for my continued success in life.”

Fast forward to 40, and re-reading it now, it just lands so differently. Wow. I was a badass, that’s for sure. Not that I wouldn’t still push myself in both literal and figurative ways—but I wouldn’t be so, how you say, horrible to myself? Thank the heavens I am so much kinder these days. And honestly, the audacity of my younger self to answer a MGT 380 course question on resilience by spilling the tea on a full-blown meltdown from my personal life? Peak rebellion. Ha. But I digress.

Do I still compare myself? Obviously. I mean, hello, I’m an extremely self-aware human, duh. But instead of tearing myself apart, I move at my own pace, in my own rhythm, and I actually like myself while doing it.

These last ten years, I’ve definitely been “doing the work,” and let me just say, the infusion of self-love into my life has made me less critical, more compassionate (to myself and to others), and overall so much more me.

Where I used to compare myself to everyone around me, striving to look “cool” enough to fit in, I now unapologetically embrace my individuality. Where the emphasis once rested on how I appeared outwardly, it now shines on how I feel within. Where my desires were once extrinsically motivated, they are now intrinsically embodied. Where I once constricted myself to conform, I now relax into becoming. And where I used to shame myself for being “bad” at something new, I now practice self-compassion, lifting myself up instead of playing the mean girl.

The older I get the more I am consciously choosing the existence I want to experience. With age not only comes wisdom but, if one chooses, an unraveling of toxic patterns, unfavorable learned programs, and a remembrance of who one truly is. Getting older is freaken awesome.

Slight tangent, but, Becoming the Sun was born from a profound healing session with my beautiful teacher, Lilah. During this soul-nourishing experience, I asked, “What is my purpose in life?” and she simply said, “To become the sun.” From that moment, I began stepping into my radiance — even when it felt awkward, especially when it felt awkward.

It’s often cringy to lead with your heart wide open, to be vulnerable, and to truly show up authentically… that cringe is from our inherent desire to be accepted and the fear of being rejected causes us to feel that sinking anxiety ridden feeling of “oh god, this is humiliating, what if they think I’m a total freak”, but it also feels amazing, exhilarating, euphoric.

The more I lean into stepping out of the comfy shackles of my comfort zone, the more I attract people who feel like angels in human form. These last two years, wow. By opening my heart and allowing love in, I show others it’s safe to do the same. That’s the greatest blessing. This is my purpose with this platform.

And here we are: a year after launching my podcast, now sharing on this platform and connecting with beautiful souls like you. :)

Oh and the casual mention of the “demise of a three year romantic relationship” I was referring to, was a dynamic consisting of an emotionally unavailable man who I kept accepting breadcrumbs from, who would end up shattering my heart (we will absolutely be talking about this more because damn, heartbreak can be the ultimate catalyst for change, phew!), leading me to embark on the most pivotal journeys of my life, the journey within, and setting me free to meet the man of my dreams a few years later because I finally found my self worth. Sooo, all that to say, I thought it would be fun to share this throwback piece, equal parts embarrassing and empowering, and reflect on just how far I’ve come. And a friendly reminder to give your younger self a big hug, because they probably need it.

Today’s channeled message: You were never here to blend in, to hustle for approval, or to perfect every step. You are here to rise in your own rhythm, to burn with your own fire, to be unapologetically alive. Let comparison fall away. Choose compassion. Stand in the light that is already yours.

Your becoming is the brilliance.

For anyone drawn to reconnect with their inner child, I’ve created an Inner Child Healing Meditation to help you soften, release, and remember your wholeness.

Jowita Healing Arts is a space devoted to self discovery, consciousness expansion, and remembering the wisdom that already exists within you.

Here, I share my work, my own experiences, and conversations exploring consciousness, spirituality, personal transformation, and my real life.

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My hope is that whether you come here for a QHHT session, a podcast episode, a piece of writing, or simply a moment of inspiration, you leave feeling a little more connected to yourself.

You are so much more than you realize.

Thank you for being here. I’m deeply grateful to walk a little piece of this path alongside you.

With light and gratitude,
Jowita

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Loss can feel like a breaking point, but what if it is actually a portal to expansion? What if those who enter and exit our lives are fulfilling a soul contract—agreements made before we incarnated, designed to help us evolve? Today, I want to explore five profound spiritual truths about loss that can help us see beyond the pain:

1. The soul is eternal—death is just a transition. Those we love do not truly leave us; they shift into another form of existence, still connected to us in ways beyond the physical realm.

2. Every being in our lives has a soul contract with us. Before we incarnate, we choose certain relationships and experiences that will help us grow. Even the ones that are brief or painful have deep meaning.

3. Loss is a portal to transformation. It breaks us open, allowing grace and wisdom to enter. Through grief, we can deepen our understanding of love, presence, and our spiritual path.

4. The nature of love is to be present and let go at the same time. Life is impermanent, and our challenge is to love deeply without attachment, to embrace the present while knowing that all things evolve.

5. Those we lose are never truly gone—they live through us. Their energy, lessons, and love continue to shape our journey, influencing us in ways we may not even realize.

In this episode, we will explore how grief can be an invitation to open our hearts even wider, how loss can bring us closer to divine wisdom, and how we can honor the presence of those we love even after they have transitioned. We will also draw from the teachings of Ram Dass, Louise Hay, and Carolyn Myss, whose wisdom offers profound insights into the nature of loss, healing, and the eternal connection of the soul. Let's dive into this sacred conversation and explore the lessons hidden within our deepest sorrows.

Listen now and step into a space of healing, remembrance, and spiritual awakening.

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Your energy is everything. The way you think, feel, and vibrate determines what you attract. In this powerful episode of Becoming the Sun with Jowita, you’ll receive an electrifying pep talk and a series of high-frequency affirmations designed to shift your mindset, raise your vibration, and align you with limitless abundance.

Drawing on the wisdom of Abraham Hicks and Wayne Dyer, this episode is your daily reset—an activation of your highest self. You are the creator of your reality, and when you choose to shift from limitation to possibility, from doubt to trust, and from fear to power, you open yourself to miracles.

This is more than just motivation. This is a call to alignment. Keeping your energy high isn’t just a nice idea—it’s the key to receiving more of what you desire. When you shift, your life shifts. It’s easy, it’s essential, and it’s entirely in your hands.

Listen anytime, anywhere—on your morning walk, in the car, before a big moment, or whenever you need a boost. Let this be the message that rewires your energy and reminds you: you are limitless.

Affirm it. Feel it. Become it.

Thank you for listening!

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